[ex110011]

hey ts, after reading what you wrote, it reminded me a little of what i went through too. Im not going to write my story here and im also not as good in english. But anyway, i also ended up being blocked on whatsapp, facebook etc etc....

Its obviously only your side of the story, but heres what i think.
You will feel like shit for many more months, but you have to force yourself and say that it is not your fault. Im sorry if this is going to sound very straight forward. The girl you know is gone. She has changed, and she is not going to tell you why or what really happened when she went overseas.

"we stopped talking, we were quarrelling a lot over stuff like this. I admit, I was childish back then, I didn't know why I was like that. If I let my grip a little looser, perhaps she wouldn't be like this today."

Sometimes i also still think of that. If i did this or did that differently. Yea maybe it will help a bit. But if she has changed, sooner or later the quarrels will still happen. And it will be the same ending.
Dont be too harsh on yourself. Its a good thing you are still young and 18 years old. You will meet many other girls. And you will never forget the old her. But hopefully, one day you will meet a different girl. It will never feel the same as her, but hopefully, one day, you will be happy again. All the best