Two years ago, I was
confused. I found sammyboy forum and got the contact of
Xiao Yan (*). I sat at Marina Bay deliberating for many hours before calling her. But she was not available. A few days later, I decided to believe in
one last fairy tale. I thought sincerity and persistence will win me the girl I love and that we will live happily ever after.
..........
Throughout my journey to the hotel, I kept wondering what she looked like. I spotted a very pretty girl in the MRT. I told myself, if its her, I might even consider marriage. When I reached Chinatown MRT, I kept looking around wondering who she could be. Outside Hotel 81, I hid behind a pillar and called her. Luckily, the ugly hag I was hiding from did not answer the call. When she finally appeared, I was a little disappointed to be honest. She was not my type and looked older than the stated 26 yrs old.
I could have just given her a tip and said, sorry, she's not my type. But I didn't. Why? I don't know. Maybe because its the "already came so far, might as well finish it" mentality. Maybe its to show God the middle finger. Maybe its because the bro who passed me her contact introduced her as a shy girl and I would prefer to do my first time with a shy girl. Maybe because I was so nervous I don't know what's happening!
I was really nervous. Imagine this:
- First time bringing a woman to a hotel. Nervous.
- First time going to have sex. Very nervous.
- First time engaging in commercial sex. Ultra nervous!
The hotel was full. We went for a drink while waiting for a room. The wait gave me some time to calm down. After some chit chatting, she found out that I was a virgin. She couldn't believe it. She asked how I managed through all those years. It was almost impossible to convince her that there was such a thing as a 28 year old virgin male! She was not as shy as I thought. I mean, she was discussing my virginity seated in the open along the busy Chinatown at 4.30pm!
When chatting with a PRC FL, money will always be a topic. Even though its a put-off, I don't blame them. Nobody wants to be poor. I don't want to be poor. Do you?
What happened when we got into the room, I shall not describe in detail since I promised no FR (**). Having read so many juicy FRs in this forum, I can only say this session was not as exciting as I imagined. I knew all the things they will say to please you. I don't believe my dick is 超大 (ultra big). I don't believe she's really "爽" (shiok). Maybe my cynicism made my enjoyment much less than it should have been. But on hindsight, at least she does not have the infamous chao-cheebye (smelly pussy) nor bad breath nor armpit hair.
I also began to guess why the bro described her as "shy". There are some things that she didn't like to do. My take is that she is not "shy". But there are some things only those special somebody will be allowed to do.
So, how long did this virgin last? I think the actual sex lasted 3 mins at most (she counted 5 mins). Even at the end, after all my clumsiness, she only half-believed that I'm a virgin. She heard that virgins ejaculate the moment the dick reaches the hole. But honestly, I think 3-5 mins was really too short. I really need to train up for more fun ahead.
The Aftermath
When she walked out the room, I didn't feel as empty as I expected. I thought "fuck and forget" would not be easy for first timers. But strangely, I took it quite well. Maybe because she was not my type of girl. However, as I laid on the bed, my mind was the other mess I expected it to be. Did I really do this? What had I done? At one point, I even blamed what happened on her. It was because of her that I did this. But this is not true. I actively requested for her number and called her out. It was not her fault. For those who want to walk down my path, you must be prepared to be rather messed up after the whole thing. In fact, the events of the day are still a blur this very moment.
But one thing she said went home so strongly, its not a blur at all. She asked why I was keeping my virginity for the girl I love. She says the girl I love is not a virgin anymore. I asked her why she thinks so. She said anybody with a boyfriend could not be a virgin. Its a very painful stab. Yet, very enlightening.
Leaving the hotel, I walked down Chinatown, past the new police building and decided to stop my wondering. Seated at the bus stop, I looked across the road and saw an abandoned church. Even though the sign had been removed, the words "St Mathew's Church" can still be seen on the weathered wall. God had really left. This state of mind accompanied me all my way home.
Fear
The tip of my tongue felt funny since the moment I licked her cunt. I wondered what sort of germs I was eating down with my dinner. I can't help thinking about this even though I brushed my mouth before leaving the hotel. Small itch on the neck soon becomes worrying. And of course, the fear of STDs and AIDS. A condom isn't full-proof. I hope I won't turn into a nervous wreck in the weeks to come.
Will there be another time? Probably yes. I have another contact of a "
naive prc" in the phone. I really don't know. For now, all I know is:
1) Never lick the pussy of a prostitute again!
2) To take charge of the situation the next time I have sex. Don't allow the girl to dictate what to do.
3) I'll try to develop schizophrenia. There is the me that the rest of the world see, still a virgin (technically true for unprotected sex). And there is the one that God threw away.
4) Nobody will believe that a 28 year old male is a virgin. I'm glad I don't have to convince people anymore.
* The original thread had been deleted. The FRs were really well written. If anyone still has the FR on "PRC Student Xiao Yan", please send to me.
** I promised the bro who passed the contact not to write FR and not to draw more attention to the thread. So no FR. Please don't PM me for contact as well.