Sorry peeps if wat i was sharing is boring. I know most are more interested in sex but not sad stories lol. I hv nothing much to share abt sex as i kinda toned down for this comeback as compared to the prev time when i was an independent too. The only thing to share, probably my pics lol. Back to my story abt my bro who had a depression back then.
I had shared the incident yesterday abt my bro & his ex gf. I leant from my uncle my bro had a depression to the broke up juz 2 days ago. I can understand the pain he was suffered. A gal whom u wanna settled down wif, betrayed u and abused ur trust. Of course a more comfort way is telling him is a blessing in disguise. But, the pain is not something dat can be healed immediately. It happened to me before too. My family didn't knew i had depression too. Quite similar incident like my bro except the drama part. Mine was more like he was a gambler and i helped him paid the debts. Despite helping him with almost all my pay, he called me a jinx. Beside dat, he flirted or rather slept around with other women. U tell me how to go on with such guy? i was in debts due to him and i had no choice but leave my back then day job (I was a PA in a well established company) and work this field. So my bro and me somehow had the same fate.
I started to recall my bro's behaviour. I realised he actually shown signs of the depression but it juz dat I didn't realised it. Dat's 1 particular night I was at the kitchen. He approached me and asked me "Do u think ur bro is a failure? I can't find a better job and my gf left me." His eyes were actually red, felt like he going to tears anytime. Upon seeing dat, my heart sunk and my throat had this blocking feeling. I told him "No, u are not. Don't think too much. U always my bro no matter wat happened." With dat he walked back to his room. I turned around and my tears juz rolled down. It was the 1st time i felt my bro was feeling devastated. He was a strong minded guy. I never thought he would said dat to me. Another incident was dat's 1 night he came back dead drunk. I think 1 of his friends sent him home. He was puking like hell (his usual style whenever he drunk) & my mom and me were busy changing and throwing the plastic bags. He was sitting at the sofa with his elbows supporting his head, hands covered his eyes. Suddenly, he cried. It was like a shock of my life. He was saying something like Ma, why like this. I very miserable leh. I felt so heartache to see him like this. My mom consoled him "Aiya, forget such gal la. Useless already. You heng u gotta see her true color now than u marry her and regret." My mom's eyes were started to get red too. As a parent, i think would really hurt to see ur own kid crying in front of u. I guess these 2 episodes were the signs of depression but yet i didn't know it was so serious dat he needed to consume pills. Wat a sister he has.
Recently, my uncle was worried my bro's condition might affect him again due to financial stress, the tension between him and my sil and upcoming baby. My sil did mention to my mom and uncle dat, dat's a few times my bro nearly stabbed my nephew with either knife or scissor whenever my nephew started to misbehave. If dats true, it is really a serious problem. Dats why i might hv to help out after the birth of the baby in case tension build up again. So guys, pls dun underestimate abt depression. Alot will think it juz someone being emo. If it lasts long, it not juz being emo. There are different kinds of depressions. The link attached is abt different kinds of depressions for ur reference in case someone u know or u, urself might hv the signs already.
https://www.webmd.com/depression/guide/depression-types
Pls get help if the symptoms might match with 1 of the types. Don't prolong it as it will get worse. It already late and i need to rest. Goodnight all
