Originally Posted by prodigal2chance
Greetings fellow brothers,
It is not easy for me to finally decide to share and post this. Very briefly, my sharing shall cover the following, and I ask that you please bear with me.
First I would like to appeal to sammyboy to allow me to post this, as a warning to our fellow bros especially those who are new and unaware of the dangers and pitfalls :
1) Who am I – I am 40+ typical Singaporean Chinese Male, stay in a condo with car, married with good wife and kid and with good job. I started ML lifestyle 1 year + ago, ended up crossing the line, almost lost my job, lost much money, contacted STD, got arrested during a police raid, could have ended up in jail and eventually found out by my family and almost lost them. Actually I almost lost everything that I have and owned….Don’t end up like me or worse. By the grace and mercy of God and much needed forgiveness of my loved ones, I am trying to rebuild my life and regain my self respect as a man.
2) How I started ML and prostitution
3) Why am I doing this and what do I hope to achieve in posting this –
a) I think there are many walking down the same road as I am, some have not start, some halfway some way ahead of me….would like to share my plight, don’t end up destroying yourself
b) What porn and this lifestyle had change me over the last 1 year + and what could have happen to me
c) There some good within each of us, we can pick ourselves up again to become respectable/useful men to our family, friends and society. Our family and society need us – more on this later
d) Some ML are not all bad, it’s a quick buck option and I also have terrible encounters but almost none like to do what they are doing and most have low self esteem, from my talks with my regular MLs. Appeal to treat them with diginity
4) Am I trying to be a saviour or some sort – Definitely not. I have betrayed my wife and children, failed in my role as a husband and father, I am not fit in any sense to be anyone’s saviour. I have received forgiveness and grace to pick up my life again from where I left off and I just want to warn guys that are or may be walking down the same path as I am to turn around and save themselves from further destruction.
5) Am I off this ML lifestyle and have I overcame the temptation?
I have stop visiting MLs for the last 8 months, Have I overcome the temptation and lure of the ML? No, the temptation and lure is there, I have to deliberately keep myself away. There are some useful tools that my counsellors and psychtrist had shared with me that I belief would be useful to you as well. I will share this further later. So, I am not someone who has overcome this and now stand proudly saying that if I can do it, you can do it. BUT I am someone who is also struggling with this temptation every now and then, the same temptation and struggle that you are facing. Lets fight this and restore our self respect.
6) Why should you read this ?
To be continue...
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