[kryptonite123]

I am considered relatively new to the cheonging scene. Till now, the number of girls I’ve bonked – countable by fingers of both hands, but more than one hand.

A description of the process
The most exciting part is where you are waiting in the room for the girl, waiting for her to appear. The sms exchanges prior to her ultimate appearance is the second most exciting part. I attribute this to the “headless” pictures you see in the threads; undoubtedly, cyberspace community has this ability to exaggerate the beauty of the people in these pictures. Next, overtaken by lust… soon, one round away. After firing off the first round, at that every instant (when my 2IC is still inside the FL’s pussy), my mind will all of a sudden “return to reality”. In short, I feel “sian”. After some fluff talking with FL, it will be time for round 2, which typically takes longer than round 1. Usually in round 2, as my mind feels “sian” after round 1, the FL would be the one doing most of the work. Similarly, after the second round if fired off, the “sian” feeling remains or intensifies. Soon, it is time to part ways.

And that’s about it.

The Girlfriend Experience a.k.a. GFE
It bewilders me why men would turn to commercial sex (KTVs included) for GFE. I think this is the root of all the sob stories you seen in the Matters of the Heart section. If I can feel myself getting more “sian” as my number of bonks go up, what more the FL who bonks so much more frequently than me? Looking for GFE in such an emotionally-hardened girl, and expecting such a relationship to bear fruit – it’s really 自取灭亡.
No matter how caring, attractive, etc. you may be to the FL, the matter of fact is because she met you in such a context (you as somebody looking for commercial sex), such a relationship will never have happy endings. Sure, they are exceptions (think: how many people on this earth can become Presidents?)

The sex trade
Although money is easy to make for these FLs, I believe there is a price for them to pay (especially if they are still single). They will find it much more difficult to immense themselves in a genuine relationship. Even when these FLs return to their homelands where nobody knows what they did here, there is still this ugly memory (of once being in this trade) which will accompany them for the rest of their lives. At the end of the day, the purpose of this trade is to earn money (lots of it in a relatively short time), and the purpose of money is mainly to satisfy material wants. But then again, material wants are there to satisfy spiritual needs. At the end of the day, is the price really worth it?

This is happening to me right now
I feeling this whole thing is getting increasingly mundane. Some of you may think it has to do with the FL involved, but it’s not. It’s more about the big picture of commercial sex actually. Feelin' this whole thing is pretty much meaningless.

I feel I’m beginning to see girls less superficially (lesser emphasis on the exterior). I have never been in a relationship (due to fear of commitment), and I’m telling myself if I ever get into one, character and personality of the girl is going to precede her looks. Dunno why I’m also telling myself to cherish my parents, whom I feel I’ve been taking for granted for these time.

Then again, I’m writing this just after a bonk, so I’m not feeling the “sperm want to reach brain” feeling. If that feeling returns...

Sorry bros if I bored you, just feel like writing out what I’m feeling at the moment.