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I felt that I always have issue getting into a exclusive relationship with the opposite gender.

At 22 years old, intelligent and physically attractive, my dates with the opposite gender never transcend beyond the initial physical attraction.

Take the recent girl who rejected me a few months back, she never rejected my dates and her replies to me were almost always instant, although, granted that I was always the one initiating texts and dates. We flirted over texts regularly but the moment I confessed, I was rejected. We went out a couple of times-6times-over a course of few months; silence are common on our date since I am aware she can't measure up to my intellectual capacity, so I settled to listening to her go about her families, friends and work. Well, I'm fine with it. I listen to her rants abouts work frustrations and stress. I pay for dates, and even after they got attached, I ended up having to pay for their due share if we happened to went out. Experiencing a few rejection consecutively from different girls frustrates me a lot and I find myself viewing the opposite gender in a misogynistic lens; consequentially because I do not know what is it that I'm lacking or doing wrong even after evaluation and post-factum reference to my dating patterns. These girls whom I've went out with on a date aren't top models, in any, just your average Jane. She did once complain that she find it difficult to talk to me because I was too 'deep'. Sometime after rejection, I asked what was the cause that lead to my rejection and all I got was "you're nice but you need some luck". Typical clinch bullshit. Could the reason be because I lack skills in playing the dating game? I intuit that effort no longer count for as much as someone who is skilled at playing the dating game. It seems like I could spend months of effort and yet fail whereas some guys would need only to spend a month or two just to get into a relationship.


I want to do something about it. I hate being in the position whereby some other guys enter the picture midway into my pursue after the girl, or, having to see the girl date some other guy shortly after I've been rejected. Its a bitter feeling. Its a recurring pattern which always happened to me and I'm frustrated. I'm not looking to win her back because given my anger at the rejector, coupled with my pride, I would never accept a relationship with anyone who rejected me. I've been diagnosed with melancholy depression and this is one of the issues at play that which is affecting me. I can't get over the fact that I've been failing.