[steinbecksg]

some of u may remember as the guy who lost his virginity only at the age of 27 to a FL. Im 33 this year already.. my life is even more fucked up. I got married to a viet massage gal and within 1 and a half year she cheated on me with a prc guy. We had a pair of twins.. she took them to viet and of course i had to support them. Im sending 1k per month to her. its my responsibility.

at first i tried going for local gals but was rejected by them as expected. im low income, no car, no paper. was insulted by some of them, they think they r very great even though they were just holding some admin jobs with a dip.

with this setback and other problems, i developed severe depression and insomnia and was prescribed meds by imh but i had stopped taking them coz i think they r useless and medical bills are expensive.

however, i lost my job as a retail asst as i did not turn up for work due to my screwed up state. i went for interviews at metro, isetan and many other cos but no body contacted me for a job. i don't understand why too.

i have 2 elderly parents to support as well and im really at my wits end. i tried going to my dad's relatives. he had helped them financially in the past and they always claimed they will repay his kindness every CNY when we met up. But they refused to help and were unpleasant when i approached them.

on my studies front, i was a sec 3 dropout and only managed to get my O levels at the age of 32. Had to beg the poly authorities to take me in and posted me to a cold course that nobody wanted. I had a hard time coping as my foundation in maths were very weak.. night classes are really screwed up. and i had problems interacting with my classmates due to age gap and they were saying unpleasant stuff behind my back. i didn't talk much to them initially and was labelled unfriendly. when i tried talking to them i was labelled as a pedo. whatever i do im fucked.

applied for a bursary and got it but it only pays a portion of sch fees. With all these issues i was so depressed i thought of killing myself. but now i have decided to strengthen up and try my best to make money. i hope if any bros here have any lobangs pls intro me.

thank u for reading my wot, im screwed up mentally, hope i make sense in this post.