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I feel like shit (potentially affecting my relationship)
I'm getting married early next year and I'm feeling very overwhelmed by what transpired yesterday. It was my first time in a long time going to JB. Didn't expect much as I only wanted a massage. Long story short, me and ML teased each other and I didn't think clearly at that point and I was horny that I asked if can do vaginal intercourse a bit and she at first hesitated cause of the noise then allowed me to. Just putting it in and trusting for about 10 seconds, I ejaculated into her (unprotected). Everything. After ejaculation and my dick being in there for another good 5-8 seconds. I suddenly realised I fucked up big big time.

After the massage, the masseuse didn't make a big fuss of it (she's Viet). Looks to be in her mid 30s or early 40s. Paid her and was about to leave when she suddenly took her phone out while on a video call with someone and I can see she's clearly pointing at my direction. i suspect taking a photo of me. Anyone encountered this situation before? What if she took a photo of me as proof and happens to be pregnant then tried to get some ah long to find me? Or threatend me to in sg to go back and find her to be responsible for the kid? And potentially my fiance finding one

So now I'm extremely paranoid. I've already gone to doctors this morning and prescribed PEP. Will do regular checkup as well for other std. In the meantime, I may have to come up with excuse for no sex till I'm cleared.

I feel like absolute shit. That 20 seconds of pleasure was not worth the after thought and now im just so defeated. My wallet is burned from the PEP. My relationship with fiance could also be potentially ruined if I come up with some STD. But I'm more concerned about the ML getting pregnant and finding me, leading to my fiance knowledge on the matter and everything we've planned for is now in shambles.

I feel super remorseful. I can't function normally. Everytime I see my fiancé planning out wedding, I feel like crying and hope I just die before that.

Can anyone advice? I'm taking measures right now to get myself medicated and tested for 1 month, 3 and 6. Anything I should be doing to stay calm and not worry?

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I feel like shit (potentially affecting my relationship)
I'm getting married early next year and I'm feeling very overwhelmed by what transpired yesterday. It was my first time in a long time going to JB. Didn't expect much as I only wanted a massage. Long story short, me and ML teased each other and I didn't think clearly at that point and I was horny that I asked if can do vaginal intercourse a bit and she at first hesitated cause of the noise then allowed me to. Just putting it in and trusting for about 10 seconds, I ejaculated into her (unprotected). Everything. After ejaculation and my dick being in there for another good 5-8 seconds. I suddenly realised I fucked up big big time.

After the massage, the masseuse didn't make a big fuss of it (she's Viet). Looks to be in her mid 30s or early 40s. Paid her and was about to leave when she suddenly took her phone out while on a video call with someone and I can see she's clearly pointing at my direction. i suspect taking a photo of me. Anyone encountered this situation before? What if she took a photo of me as proof and happens to be pregnant then tried to get some ah long to find me? Or threatend me to in sg to go back and find her to be responsible for the kid? And potentially my fiance finding one

So now I'm extremely paranoid. I've already gone to doctors this morning and prescribed PEP. Will do regular checkup as well for other std. In the meantime, I may have to come up with excuse for no sex till I'm cleared.

I feel like absolute shit. That 20 seconds of pleasure was not worth the after thought and now im just so defeated. My wallet is burned from the PEP. My relationship with fiance could also be potentially ruined if I come up with some STD. But I'm more concerned about the ML getting pregnant and finding me, leading to my fiance knowledge on the matter and everything we've planned for is now in shambles.

I feel super remorseful. I can't function normally. Everytime I see my fiancé planning out wedding, I feel like crying and hope I just die before that.

Can anyone advice? I'm taking measures right now to get myself medicated and tested for 1 month, 3 and 6. Anything I should be doing to stay calm and not worry?

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